i dont even know who i am anymore. i’ve turned into someone else.
we would have been together for two years and nine months today, but instead you’ve been w/ her for five months. i wish i could break your heart like you broke mine, make you cry until you can breathe anymore. but i can’t bc i still love you w/ everything i have in me.
i don’t remember the last time i felt like i could breathe theres a fucking hole in my chest where my lungs and heart should be i have this constant feeling that i’m bursting into flames and then the wind storms in and scatters my ashes over and over how is it possible i can feel everything and nothing at once am i dead inside or in love with the world i don’t know what to do or who i am i don’t know anything anymore all i know is i don’t have much time left and i’m fading away why doesn’t anyone notice i’m going insane i’m not okay nothing is okay everything is going wrong and i can’t breathe i can’t breathe i can’t breathe.
No matter who I date or talk to, you’re still always on my mind and I have no idea why